Mom letter 4

Life happens – 4
02/23/2010

As much as we hate any type of discomfort or diversity in our lives, I am finding that it is these moments that are defining my relationship with my God. It is when I walk through the valleys that I come face to face with my total reliance on my Savior. I am at that point that I can, like Paul, thank him for what is going on in my body because it brings me into His presence in a way that is not sought when I am feeling on top of the world. To go through this life and never feel the absolute presence of God would be such a tragedy. As we approach Thursday and all the test results, I have to keep this thought in my mind. I am the first to admit that there is fear just lurking around the corners of my mind and as I prayed and wondered why such fear over test results, I found myself going back 12 years ago. Those who know me well, know that it was then I had a 4-way bypass. It was a time when I knew my body was trying to tell me all was not right and so Kent and I started the journey to find out what was going on, much like this journey. As we went through each step and test we were sure God was going to bring good news and the problem would be simply solved. But it wasn’t, and each test took us to another test until we finally reached that place where we were told I had to have open heart surgery. At the time we wondered how our God could allow this, but looking from this side of the journey I see He had giving me the very best solution. I don’t have to worry about stints failing or needing more angioplasty because it was all taken care of in one afternoon. But the going from test to test was a fearful time and I feel I am letting that memory cloud what is happening to me today. I fear that it will be bad news on bad news, and yet I know what my God did for me and what He will do for me today. I have to rebuke Satan and all his tricks and remember that my God is bigger than my fears, that He will take me down the path that is right for me today. I ask each of you to pray for Kent and I over the next couple of days because I know Satan is going to try and do a number on us. We know we are totally covered by the blood of our Savior, but we also recognize the force of a believer’s prayer. Thank you all for praying and listening to our sometimes ramblings during this journey. We have a great God and He will be glorified through this, of that I have no doubts. Janice