His presence (mom)

March 9, 2010

Just an update on what is happening in my world. I am enjoying this week as it is the first one in awhile that I am not being injected with some caustic substance and made to lay absolutely still when all I want to do is throw up. God is good through it all, I never threw up when I was suppose to be still, and my skinny heart doctor declared that I was “strong of heart and fat of body” so I am good to go. My surgery, if you don’t remember, is scheduled for March 23 at Memorial Hospital.
I was reading in the Psalm the other day and I came across something that spoke so powerfully to me that I had to share it with my 12-step group on Sunday. I am not one who worries much but if I am going to feel worry or fear it will be in the middle of the night. Before my heart problem was diagnosed I would often walk up in utter fear of dying and would have to pray myself back to sleep. This has not happened to me this time – not that I don’t find myself waking up – but that I am not fearful. When reading Psalm 63:6-8 it was as though my Lord was letting me know why. It reads, “On my bed I remember you, I think of you through the watches of the night. Because you are my help, I sing in the shadows of your wings. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.” I remembered the many times I have found myself waking up in the night but instead of fear filling my mind, I found myself singing a familiar hymn or chorus, it is as if the Lord is keeping fear from me in the watches of the night by bringing to mind songs that talk of His loving presence. I don’t remember them all but I do remember one of them was Great is Thy Faithfulness. It doesn’t last long and I drift back to sleep. Isn’t that just the neatest thing? You will all be relieved to know that I am not singing out loud or poor Kent would be having nightmares, the song just plays in my head. Sometimes I don’t even know all the words and I just mentally hum. My God is such an awesome God, and He never fails to amaze me in how He is constantly revealing Himself to me and then affirming that it is indeed from Him by placing what is happening to me in His word. What a tremendous joy that brings to me.
Keep praying for Kent and me. We love you all and cannot express what your support has meant to us during this time. Janice