Walking in the Light (mom)

3-4-2010

It has been a few days since I have written to you all, but they have been busy days for me. It has been a series of doctor visits and tests.
Before I get into my world of medicine, I would like to share with you a humbling experience I had on Monday in which the Lord taught me a very important lesson. I have a friend who is down in LA waiting for surgery that can only be done there. She went over two months ago thinking the surgery was to be done the next day. When she arrived they found they needed to clear up some infections so they put her on a heavy duty round of antibiotics after which they decided they needed to get her body built back up. As a result they put her in a convalescing home until she was strong enough for surgery. Monday, another gal and I went down to see her. I put on my best Jesus cap thinking I would go minister to this friend and in doing so, please my God. When we got there, we discovered she was not in a pleasant place and she was feeling a little lost. We went out to a patio area to visit and she poured out her heart about what was going on in her life, the frustration, the feeling of not being able to study the Word as she wanted, all the things that we go through when we are sick. As she cried and talked to us, she would suddenly regain her composure and smile and say, “Oh yeah, I want you to meet my friend. She just wandered into my room one day and last night I was able to lead her to the Lord.” Then she would talk again about her lack of devotion to her Lord. Suddenly, she would remember another friend we must meet, a young girl with cerebral palsy who couldn’t move or speak but had a good mind. She had been going in to her and reading Scripture. I tell you this because God showed me someone who was really doing His work in the worst of conditions, and who was I to think I could minister to her. She was such a blessing to me. Here I am surrounded by family and friends and I am not doing the Lord’s work with the same intensity as she is doing. I was very humbled, and yes, God used our visit to minister to her that day, but it was much more of a ministry to me.
Yesterday I had my heart test and of course it made me sick, but my Monday visit kept my mind on the important things – like praising the Lord in all circumstances. I went to the surgeon today and we are scheduled for March 23rd. We did not get the surgeon we thought we were going to, but this man’s name kept coming up as we went to doctors and we knew it was God’s will when the surgeon we had selected recommended him.
As we wait for the surgery and all it entails I will cling to Colossians 4:2 “Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful.” Psalm 59:15-16 reminds me that “Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of presence, O Lord. They rejoice in your name all day long; they exult in your righteousness.”